The pen is mightier than the Theory of Relativity.....

The pen has been a mighty tool over the years.  It has written one of our most important documents, the Declaration.  It allows one to buy a house.  It gives your child their name.  It allows you to poke your enemies eyes out and use it to scan biometric scanners....  OK, the last one could be a just a stick.....I agree.  However, the pen is also mightier than the Theory of Relativity...as it can travel and erase time.

On Monday, Feb. 27, at about 8:30am,  in an obscure building in Fort Worth, a random individual I have never met, put a pen to paper and erased ten years of my life.  He/She literally made me travel back in time, erase the last 10 years as if they hadn't existed.  It's amazing what a pen can do.

I am now a divorce'.  It's odd.  It's not any different than who I was on Sunday, but this stranger has somehow altered my past and future.  I feel It.  But I don't know How to feel.  Should I feel like I am in my twenties again ready to prowl the scene.....should I feel like I am beyond my prime, past my expiration date, good to no one........used and on the shelf of the Salvation Army.....or returned and put on the shelf as the most wanted Christmas item of the season.  Whatever I should feel, I feel fortunate for one thing.  Even though the pen has erased most of the last ten years of my life, stripping almost all who were important to me over that time, it hasn't erased my son.  He bends all time....he is the quintessential black hole.  And I cherish that.

I may have lost everything from the last ten years of my life.  Friend, mate, house, money, stability, family, but I still have Kalen.  And as I move into this new phase of my life.....people may scoff as my best friend is a 5 year old.....but in the end its those that look at you without reservation that make you whole.  That's my son.  And that is something all should seek in a mate.  No reservations.  For those that have this, congratulations.  For those that don't, have faith in that it is possible.  My grandparents couldn't have been married for over 70 years without it.  :)

Till then I will continue with this blog and let the twenty first century pen do the mighty thing it may........expressing my heart.

Peace out...

J